Wednesday, July 13, 2005
huh?
rite. im beginnin to not undastan with ppl ard me. wats wrong with them? or is it juz me? huh? im lost. why ppl are reactin dat way to me? everytime i'd come to a person, 1st thing i get was an expression of a face dat doesnt me wanna be ard. next thing, i wud get either the word 'get lost' or juz 'fuck off and fuck you'. rite. thx. guess i need it. . .
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things are back like the old times. it aint aite. things might get wrong. im havin wild thoughts now. im worryin and im wonderin. and, m i in need actuali? m i even her bf? she's like makin me feel dat im not. rite. now its startin back. we can stop from it to happen. but i duno how. rite. maybe dis is juz me and prolly, dere's nothing really dat till i shud be talkin bout dis. some explaining will do but please, no lies. she'd promised. she seems troubled over some stuff bout her clique of frens. but i dun undastan. and, i dont know what both parties tryin to do. haiz. seems like im troubled too. . . rite. y'all know wat i mean.
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i wish to help. its ok if i can't. but, cud you at least get the bottom of it and ends once and for all rather den lettin it affectin you and . . . even me? us? im worried for you. wat i meant by sayin you're lyin to me on the phone juz now is dat, when i asked you 'are you okay?' you said 'ya'. but it isnt. so my instinct was true. convince me if you have to and at least let me know you're ok. . . don't lie to me anymore. im here for you anytime. . .
take care. . .
c you tmw. . .
~if dis meant nothing to you, den im crappin again. if it does, think it through...
.:Fadhli<30>Arfah:.
1:20 PM
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