"We ride together, We die together..."

Happy 17th Birthday, Brother...
May your wish came true, one sweet day...
I love you. =)

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things that dont comes around easily; true friends.
It's allusive especially when it's them you've grown up with all these years. The reunion we had on last thursday was another indelible moments. and i realised the time spent were insufficient. guessed we had so much fun. the great thing was, every each of us did make it for this gatherin. and im pretty glad that azfriezal make it too.

and so we had swimmin for the headstart - 'The Return of 'The Waterboys'. ahaks! wanna share with you guys something.

click here.
WaterBoys.

anyway, it wasnt that long though of time spent being in the pool due to time constraint. but, we did went over to the jacuzzi and had a talk about each of our lives now. Next, came the sauna - The Steam Room. that's where we usually had our boys talk then. and as always, its freakin exhilarative when you're done and out. awesome i tell ya.

then after all that, time to change for... MOVIE TIME! ive always admire the theatre room for the space is like totally meant for us. anyway, the movie entitled, ''The Prestige''. hell it was an awesome show. great suspense. absolutely way out of what you actually think the ending would be. it's highly recommended. well, the movie was about 'the pride of a magician and its secrets'. awesome shit sia..

ok, then blah3, the main thing for the event; BARBEQUE! lantak ar, ape lagi.. perut da lapar beb. one great toast and everybody digs in. sai had all his food gobbled up in a few mins time and yeah, yazid, throughout the day, he would always interrupt for his comments when someone's talkin. it's like, he wouldnt shut up. haha. kk, lekz zid.

we had another deep conversations over the table. and me, bein the only one holdin up to N level cert there, asked how has 2006 been for them. and how is it without nizam. haha. i got great appreciative comments and all. got all touched and mezmerised. haiz. how i wish i was with them till the very end in secondary school.

congrats to them who had the school they wanted, and courses.
mohd yazid - republic poly
khairuddin - republic poly
muneera - republic poly
muhd sairi - republic poly
muhd ridzwan - singapore poly
muhd fazrul - singapore poly
nor afriezal - singapore poly
sharifah muafah - singapore poly
impian muliawani - temasek poly
ahmad syarifullah - temasek poly
muhd nizam fadhli - ite madperson(bwahahahah!)

ok. ape je fad. and that's the 11homies. that's what we named our clique. im happy for them. congrats again guys. and now ive just realised that only three school are bein chosenfor you all. cool.

anyway, i wanna share with you people something, again. something that my great friend, Yazid, wrote about us which moved me deeply...



Run! that was what Me and Nizam used to do without fail on every single school days. We were inspired by Comics, where two characters kinda matched ourselves. Nizam is bulky, and hes very strong. very very strong, im tellin' you. he could just push me out my chair with one arm, i swear i was flyin'. haha. Therefore hes ''Superman''.. And me, slim yet stable, and do things on an impulse, carried the name '' The Flash''.. Nizam, like superman, runs very fast. Superman is faster than a speedin' bullet cos he runs just under the speed of sound. Fer me, im faster..heh. The flash could run around the world in three minutes, due to he's air-resistance aura and runs just below the speed of light. Light and Sound, which's faster? physics.. you tell me ? :)

I wasnt as fast as he was back when we were juniors.. I got sick and tired of him leadin' me whenever there was a frenly run or durin' P.E lesssons.. Tho i couldnt simply do anythin' cos i was very small built, unlike Nizam, hes musculine impressed me back then :P

Tho, as soon as we were wearin' long pants. I realise i could run along with him, and not behind him. However, when we were 16yrs old.. im zoomin' all the way bebeh :) Gradually i get faster and faster and i kept leadin' the track. It was the nicest discovery :D That was also the period when i looked into the mirror to discover some pack of muscles here and there, i guess those meats help me push an extra mile. haha

So when we were 16 we both get the recognition of bein' Superman and The Flash. We ran almost everywhere.. all the time.. we ran more than we walk.
- Early in the mornin' nizam ran fer bus 161 at sengkang
-I ran every mornin' fer bus 912 coz they just cant wait. i usually missed the 1st bustop, so i ran fer the second. 150metres away
-we ran fer the last bell before bein' late comers, from where we drop off. but most of the time we step in just on the dot.
- we ran along the corridors before and after recess and in between lessons.- I ran down to the office to help Mdm farah puttin' back the Class attendance, and back up again.
- We ran across causeway point and woodlands interchange in full speed, dartin' people along the way

Generally we ran like thats the only way to survive.. haha wild huh? Me with my self-made Flash logo on my bag and flyin' hair.. tho the most greatest thing is that Everytime i turn my head to look back while runnin'.. I would see nizam. Fightin' all the way :)

'' When i see you run infront of me, and i see you, and i see the Flash symbol on your bag.. You did resemble him''- Nizam Fadhli

those was the days :)

Info:
-there was once Nizam broke hes anckle, and i made a promise to him i wont run untill he gets hes bandage off hes foot.
- my shuttle run is 8.99 seconds :))
- We broke the 4 years old 4x100m sprint record in 2006.


believe it or not, i actually cried as i readin it. you've succeed to make me cry, wally west.
i missed those times man. and speakin of runnin, we had our 'run' after the whole gatherin ends. he said that he wanted to run with me to the bus stop. and so we did. although it may seems nothing to you guys, but to me, it was a touchin moment man. -sigh-

i promise you guys that this gatherin aint gonna be the last. and i hope the promises we've made will stay true and be kept in our hearts. the depth of us is phoenomenal. and i hope we will always be. you all are essential. although the gatherin were a lil too short, what matters is that we had that gatherin and did had fun. i do. and thanks for everything. and thanks muneera for organisin this one. the rest of you all, it wouldnt be much more meaningful than it's already is and to make this gatherin possible. what would i do without you all. i love you guys...





ps: pics will be up soon. and that clip you watched above was when it was the first gatherin. sayin, Waterboys pt 1. bwahhaa.



love!
a long entry indeed...

4:47 PM
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a reunion is comin soon with the old usual suspects and im uber excited. the feelin is like the exhilaratin effect of mountain air. truly undeniable. though i was told bout it a few weeks ago, now that the date is drawin near, hell yeah im overjoyed. heard that there'll gonna be a lot of programs. barbecue, swimmin, movie or karaoke-ing, spa and of course, lepak-ing. ok, the venue is at Casablanka; this thursday. last gatherin were as awesome and i bet, this one will gonna be twice the fun. maybe this gonna be the last gatherin until god knows when. i cant wait to have this another memoriable moments again. and i deeply hopes that every each of the 11 will be present.

ika messaged me last night in the wee hours. surprised, i was. just sharin with me bout a rap&dance competition thingy that she was just bein told. to my dismay, the competition date falls on the same day an event organised by beats-society. i want to participate but im reluctant as well not to be present for the event. im still contemplatin.

it's rather appalling when you have someone that knows you more than you know yourself. you think that you're bein your usual self. but, he/she could sense it somehow that you're not. cool, somehow...





and now i realised, i just dont feel right. something's really gets on my nerve. oh well..
to Azhar, Happy 21st Birthday bro...


love.

6:25 PM
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ive broken up a girl's heart and i know it's hard for her to let it be mended. im such a jerk to have her believe my words. im such a letdown when it comes to relationships. yes, i know i am. but i want her to know that when my words were said, i meant it deep and it was purely genuine. we had great moments together and yes, i felt that feelin. it has never been a lie nor it was even bullshit. in that very moment, the words that bein whispered to her ear, i could feel somehow that i could go on the life im havin with her as far as we both could see. i couldnt believe myself that my feelings towards her were fadin. i asked myself just why but the anwers just couldnt be found. i wanted the best for us and even to have more great moments. naturally, i dont feel a thing anymore. tell me, how the hell am i supposed to carry on? i feel utterly bad for making her having hopes for me. for us. and it does applies a very heavy heart for me to say it out the truth. i know i should gave her a chance. but, i just couldnt. and truth is, it has never been a lie. i did feel it deep when i said those words to her. i may not be the man of my words of one or two but think back about the others.i let her down, yes. and im truly sorry bout it. even how sorry i feel, i know it wont change a thing. my intentions were all good and i wanted for a break up coz it would be unfair for her to lead us on when im not myself. i will never forgive myself for this. and all im seekin for now is her forgiveness. im just sorry that it'd turned out this way. i never plan to hurt her. im just doin the right thing. hurtin her aint the right thing, yes. neither is bein one-sided love and let her keep the relationship strong. im sorry to have her hurt so badly. if she herself feels that all the things ive done were all bullshit, think again. i wouldnt be doin it if it wasnt true. if you were to realise that there's no chemistry anymore and you've tried so hard to gain back and have tried to work it out but you still cant help to feel the same, would you carry on or would you break the ties? you tell me.




im not havin second thoughts,
im not trynna give hopes.
somehow i felt the need to say it out.
i hope it triggers to anyone who cares.
love.

3:59 PM
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its heartbreakin.
im feelin utterly unsatisfied.
it wont be the same anymore, and you know it.
it may to the others, but, what about me?
i know i wont feel good.
and for the record, you all have been a part of my life.
we're like pieces of puzzle.
if some of the pieces are missing, the picture is incomplete.
the same goes as this.
trust me, i will definitely feel like something's really missing so badly.
i want everybody to be in.
yes, im glad that im in.
but i wont be smilin away nor will i be enjoyin myself on the very day.
the thought of you guys will kept appearin.
ive been lookin forward for us to be enjoyin again like last year.
ive kept my faith on you guys that you all would be in.
i want US, to have the last gatherin before we step into the next stage of life as the fact that this year is our last year for ITE.
gosh.
please..

nadia, please come by tomorrow.
let it be in front of my eyes that they just couldnt accept you.
please. . .



love.

3:59 PM
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