National Day, a day dat will i never forget. and, every year, all i expected to catch it live was the airplanes and of coz, the fireworks. i like planes since i was a toddler. yea. and its been one of ma dream to be flyin a jet. hah. and, ma wish to catch the planes dis year were granted when im celebratin the nation's birthday ystdy @ esplanade. and, dis year, the planes thingy was different. and like, whoa! i loike! haha. it was so damn the kecoh. and, had a real great damn fun too! i enjoyed it very much. it was one of a hell gd time i ever had after sucha long time. the fireworks were real fascinatin. i was jumpin and shoutin like a one crazy lost kid. ppl ard kept on lookin at me wif dose 'wats-wrong-wif-dis-kid' look. haha. but wat do i care. i juz continue wat im doin. it was fun. but im not alone. i shared ma joy together wif ma siblings and kuzzins. they were shoutin wif me too. after the celebration, while we're on our way back to the mrt station, dere were like so many peeps ard. and its really similar like dose thousands and thousands of ants dispersin in all direction. damn. and i must say, the crowd control armies/police units are all suck. dey like dont know how to handle it. i aint sayin im good but im juz commentin onto dem. rite. nwy, caught many good shots of the fireworks into ma handphone. and i cant wait to show it to ma frens. esp arfah. hah. and oh yea, she's back. like, finally! she's back but i still miz her tremendously. coz i still have yet to see her. rite. called her umpteen times ystdy. durin the fireworks and b4 i went to slp. was all gettin excited initially to finally get to speak to her but den, was all faded and started to be back in the position im in while she was away when she aint answerin the call. rite. up until now den i realised dat her ppd balance was low. rite. . .

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hmm, nwy, today, i didnt do much but juz tidyin up ma room. besides dat, im rottin here. well, not really tho coz i've actuali tried entertainin maself. haha and, it was good. haha. kinda stupid and bro was in too. haha. k. mepek. rite. nwy, tmw is ma PRELIMS! wth. rite. but here's the thing. ive got been studyin and all but, i dont think im prepared at all. and, shit, i duno will i improve. seriously, ive been studyin, but still i got the fear dat i will not pass. fucks. rite. i need some confidence. some encouragement. some motivation for me to convince maself dat im all good. rite. now im all stress. and lil fucked up. duno why but screw me. and, thinkin bout it juz makin me havin butterflies in ma stomach. haiz. . .

i hope i'll pass. . .

i think i aint got anything more to write about. im shitless already. it all went blank now. ~

i'll pray. . .

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