ive been sick and i was kinda shocked when i found a blood stain on my pillow this morning. and i cant sleep well nowadays. and even if i do, i only startin to feel sleepy around 3am-4am. i dont know why but i just feel restless at home. and i tell you, i have a house but i dont feel like im home anymore. pardon me about my previous entry. it's about my folks and my cousin. why? mum lately has been really gettin on my nerves and im fuckin pissed every each time she will say something... not nice at all. and dad, i still dont understand him and i know, he still dont understand me which i dont understand why's that. not that i want him to follow my way. it's a matter of willing to give and take. and for the record, the fuckin communication and understandin.................

i totally hate what has happen. not that i wanted it to happen anyway. i hate it when you guys dont even let me to have a chance to speak. yes, when somebody talks, listen. but hell, i did listen and i fuckin heed those advices and at times, its for nothing. cant i at least say something that you guys think it wrong? and that, i should at least make it up then? i fuckin hate it when you guys just jumped to conclusion and fuckin blame or reprimanded us for nothing. NOTHING! i wanted to hit the 4glass in front of me on my head, dad. but grandma was there. push to my limits and expect things you dont even think i would ever do it.... try me.



i still hate you, dad...

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