now guess what. its been two days straight that i took this laughing gas and i totally make a fool out of myself. it's great somehow. enjoying the feeling and blah3. of course, i was high and i really couldn't get control of myself. it was kinda scary alright. i know i wasnt really myself and i got things carried away. i remembered in the bus ride home, i smiled to almost everyone within my sight and even, laughed at them. luckily i managed to only giggle about it rather then laughin out loud. then, i pointed out almost everything that i saw. ahaks. crazy2. i've inhaled so much that even i aint know how much that i consumed it. somehow, i dont encouraging this but i must say, its FUN!

agagagagagaga. ok im crazy, i know. from slashing my own arms to committin suicide, to climbing up a HDB flat up to the 11th storey then now, that stupid laughing gas. ahaks. what dangerous stuff will i do next? bring them out, bring them out. bring it on! aahahaah.

im soo not myself nowadays and i do realised that. and i aint know shit why. guess because of some thoughts i've been keeping from anyone else, except to my sis. to say, i've been thinkin alot. or maybe, it's because i've had too much stuff in mind and none of them are actually real. man, i need a break. i need a holiday. puasa is a good time. now wtf?

anyway guys, im setting a website about selling my own beats, with the help of my very own form teacher. it's under process. and i cant wait for this to happen. from there, any beats you're interested in, you may buy it. i'll update and the details more about this thingy soon.

talking about beats, well guess what! me, including my bro and shaifful, altogether we've made more than a hundred beats. no kidding. this is for real. ask those peeps who have had came down to my crib before. agagaga. that's why i've decided to sell those of my beats through website coz it's easier and much more convenient. it'll be like 15 tracks monthly.

hmm, and it's been long since Urbanize's performance. maybe this next speakeasy we'll be involving. but i aint sure yet. even if it's so, only me and shaifful will be performing on Urbanize's behalf as bro is having his major exams round the corner. we've discussed bout it and we'll see how it goes. for sure, we'll make a great comeback. i promise. . .

sorry for not having updated for some time. i've been fine and i've been having alotta of stuff and many of those i need to be fully committed to. like, make beats for some crews, this one ITE carnival that im participating, school projects, school stuff and community service. and yeah, i'll be going to Thailand for community service.

i'll be one of those who will be helping out those less fortunate ones and even, build a classroom for this one school for which, they don't even know how to recite ABC and 123. how pity can they get. for us, we even know the simplest addition and subtraction when they only stuff like traditional dance and sing alongs. and now if you do complaint about how hot the weather is or even, how pathetic it seems to have had the same dishes over and over again at home, think about those who doesn't even have a choice. especially those people in Africa who are still suffering now. seriously, how i wish for people like them to have the life that we live too.

haiz. now i missed a friend of mine. matter of fact, my first bestfriend. he was a fine and healthy young dude until one unfortunate day, he became disabled and well, he died during his second operation. too bad he didnt make it. i always get reminded of him when i see those people who are a wheelchair bound and those who had to have crutches to help themselves to walk. almost 12 years of friendship, he just went away just like that. i never expect for this to happen anyway. it's so sudden. i thought he'll be okay as he was responding to treatments already. haiz. shit happens huh. rest in peace, Balakishnan. you're one good guy. . .

take care everybody. treasure all those who you have around you. you'll realised that the person you dont see often, he/she is actually someone that's important to you in your life, in a way or another. and you will almost regret that you dont really know him/her that well and it'll be too late the next thing you knew it that he/she has passed on. . .

love!

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