i hate this kind of feeling where you think that it's all fine and good but actually its not and its something that got to do with you. and that, you dont know how to do anything about it. you wanna face it and get it done and over with but the thing is, you just cant. suck it is but well, i know i suck.

so, yesterday, had this appreciation dinner for all of the motivators. indeed, it was rather sad. we had fun bout the games and stuff. and we got to dress hidayat up into a retro guy which turns out to be like elvis. ahahahahahaha. he like some sort like a gay boy sia. like dressin up all good to work at Changi village. ahahahha. k. im mean. sry bro but i cant help it!

so, those games were rather lame but kinda fun tho. at least it managed to pull off some hilarious moments. ahaks. and after all that, i had something for my cluster. i made this presentation - which took me like nearly 4 hours - for them for which consists of those moments of us when we're in our trainings and blah3. but on behalf of afiz and man, we're glad that it touched your hearts guys. razman were rather sad when he was doin his part of the presentation all alone that time.

so yesterday, it was the last moments we all motivators as one can ever be havin anymore. the journey has ended. and i just hope that we'll never lost in touch.

it just kinda funny when you think back bout it, in just a short period of time, you feel like you're in a circle of new friends that seems like you're close to them since childhood. and within that period that the bonds were so tight until you dont feel like lettin go the fact that we aint gonna be seein each other that much now, saturdays aint gonna be the same anymore and all. now that sucks.

and oh oh. i think my left arm is broken. great. i cant really bend it. coz if i do, it hurts real bad like thousands of red ants bitin ya. woohoo! the doc said its dislocated and blah3, but i think its more den that coz it seems like swellin more and more everyday. weeee~! dont ask me wad happen. it's just due to another stupid acts of mine. it was plain dumbness indeed. fad fad. . .

now im startin to think, what happen if im permanently disabled? gosh. i musnt think too much. future gona ruin of course but well, if this wad my destiny is, i cant deny it still. . . pray for my recovery. i need it. coz i need my arm for my daily routine. haiyaaaaa. . .


~first it was my right ankle, then my left. and now my arm. so what's next? cant life get any mean to me? just my luck. . . . ... rite.

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