baik ah! my world has start to be in a mess. all the things are happenin ard me are all wrong. shit. last night i was bein scolded and was like being shouted at like a dog barked at a tiny ant. i was down. my heart were cryin. i didn't noe wat else to do but to juz locked myself up in my own room and be in the dark. kept starin at the ceiling above which then i realised ive been starin at it for about 2hrs. damn. soon, i went to slp. and i dreamt. i dreamt abt myself bein dead. oh yea. i was dead. and like ppl whom i knew were all being happy that im not ard anymore... haiz... is this for real???....

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the 'thing' i had wit my father has come back. and guess i'll be a real rebellious child in this fam soon. sumtimes i feel like he's not even my dad. and sumtimes i don't even feel that im their son. i leali feel like killin myself. damn.

im sori arfah for bein such a long time to get back to u. leali. i cudnt get anywhere but juz in my room. sorry...

11:02 PM
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